Manifesting life

We've seen the word everywhere, it's almost trendy now. "Manifesting at Full Moon", "Im ill, so I'm manifesting", "how do I manifest my way to a better life" etc etc. Okey so manifesting is such an interesting subject. Whenever I chat about it, it's either with someone that think it's full of shit, or someone that's all about it and loves to discuss it. The last couple of days I have been thinking about it a lot and wanted to share my personal thoughts and experience with it, take what you want from this, but try to get out of your head and into your body. Don't overthink, just feel what the heart and guts tells you when you're reading this. 

So what is manifesting? It's actually pretty hard to describe. It's basically taking a thought or a desire, letting it leave the mind and bringing it to the universe and the world. It could be through positive thinking and actions, through saying what you want out loud, sharing your disire with friends, performing rituals etc etc. Basically, Manifesting, is getting it out from your head and bringing it into the physical world. That, I would say, is a short and sweet description of Manifestation. 

A lot of you will be like, "yea whatever but how will that actually happen? What's the scientific truth?" I say, get the fuck out of your head and into you body. I do not not how how it works, it just does, #unknownsource. 

So I wanted to share a bit of my experience about how I got some things in my life through manifestation. What's really important for me to say is that I didn't even know that I was "Manifesting" when I practiced this. So if you've followed me for a while or know a bit of my story. You'll know that I left Sweden and moved to London. I then started to work and quickly got a job in Branding, Marketing & Events (without education or experience). I worked with cool projects in East and central London, big budgets and fun people. At the same time as I lived in my favourite area London Fields with my best friends in a beautify house. I just kind of had everything I wanted. At the time, I unfortunately saw more negatives that positives (the grass was always greener...) The job was too crazy, I didn't like living by the park in the summer (as it turned into a mini Coachella as soon as the sun came out). Now when I don't work in Branding anymore and I don't live there I can see how blessed I was with the fact that my dream came true, as eight years ago that would be my dream. It's always very healthy to imagine you meeting yourself maybe 2-3 years back in time and just letting yourself know how far you've come. It always gives a good perspective on things. So if you've never done that, I invite you to take a break and have a think about everything you've accomplishes and show some love and gratitude towards that and yourself.

Anyway this week, as I mentioned, I have thought a lot about manifesting. And I just thought about the fact that I kind of got everything I want right now. And I was manifesting without even knowing. I've always been a pretty visual person. I like to get nice notebooks and pens, write stuff in my journal to GET SHIT OUT OF MY HEAD. Like literarily, I would write just to get it out, because keeping it in my head only, would stress me. So, I started to make loads of lists. Where I wanted to be, what I wanted to do, what kind of people I wanted to meet etc etc. So the other day I was spring cleaning my room. Threw out shit loads of shit, went though old boxes with stuff and got rid of heaps of unnecessary things, just like getting rid of old baggage (very emotionally reliving). I found this old notebook from 6-7 years ago, I had a look in it and saw aaall these lists. Lists with places, where I wanted to live, languages I wanted to be surrounded by, stuff I wanted to try. Guys, sooo much of what I wrote down years ago, has happened. And I can't even remember writing it. I was manifested without knowing! 


Another way to manifest could be so easy as using the social channels that todays life is offering. I have my Pinterest where I save saved beautiful photos of stuff that I like (and kind of want) everything between clothes to quotes to photos of house and interior. I've always said out loud how I want to live and I've been collecting photos of how I want my surroundings to be like. This could be another way of manifesting because you are getting it out of your head and are telling the universe what you want. And what's funny is that I look at these old photos and lists. Then I'll have a look around where I live today, in a beautiful converted warehouse, with the most amazing people,  full of plants and light - basically everything I've wanted. You need to put in the work of manifestation to get it. Talk about it to your friends and don't be shy having conversations about what you want in life. Say it out loud when you're out for a walk, write it down - just get it out of your head! 

Another thing that has come to me through manifestation is my job. I've always wanted to serve others and bring something good into this world. As I kid I wanted to be a florist or a marine biologist, working with nature. But then in my teens when I started to practice yoga, I fell deeply in love and I knew that I one day wanted to teach. And here we go, I would say it out load. I would tell my mom, my teachers, my friends, my siblings. I would imagine it and write it down. I would print photos and put them up on my wall. And so it continued for so many year. I kept telling my family, friends and lovers. I just really, really wanted it. For me somehow, it was only a question of time. Sooo, my life was a bit of a shit show last year, the universe tested how much I could handle. So I went through it all and decided that this must be the time. This is the perfect time. So I went all in, with my heart, body and soul and today I'm teaching full time. Of course it was loads and load of physical and emotional hard work in it as well. But I was manifesting what I wanted through getting it out of my head, saying it out load and kept my thoughts about it positive. 


So without knowing, this week I realised that I have manifested so much in my life. But it's always been in career, self-confidence and material things - which are all a great things and a big part of our life. What I haven't manifested is desires about partners and love. Okey, so I have met many amazing people that has inspired me and shaped who I am today. However, I haven't met someone that has fucking blown my mind and I've never been in love. Again that doesn't mean that I haven't made beautiful love or had amazing journeys with partners. So this week when I've really diggd into my past in manifesting, I realised that I have never said out loud the qualities I am looking for in a partner. So I went out walking in the woods for a couple of hours, no one around me and I was literarily saying everything out load, everything Im looking for in a parter. Some of you may be like "this chick if fucking crazy, what is she talking about". And that's okey! Take what you want from this, because I really don't care if you're not into it. So not only is doing something like that manifesting, but it's a really good exercise for one self to actually pin point what you are looking for. It doesn't mean that the person you end up with will be like what you manifested in smallest detail. But again just getting it out of your head and into the world! So if you are struggling with knowing what you're even looking for, this could be a great thing to do. Because you know what, you have to fucking think. Like properly: What do I want and what actually matters. And you'll realise that half the shit you thought you needed in your life and a partner actually might not be that important. 

Soooooo now to the fun part! How can YOU manifest? And are you already manifesting? Well the first step would be to decide what your biggest desire is right now. To do that find the time to really think. Go out for a walk without your phone, take a bath, something where you can switch of and feel. The desire can can maybe be to move house, to end a relationship, to enter a relationship, to be content within your body, to get that pay rise etc etc. Whatever it is, pick one thing! I want you to then get your journal and write about it. Write it as if it is happening already. I also encourage you to close your eyes and imagine what it feels like being there. Focus all your energy on it and imagine what it would feel like. So say that you are manifesting to leave your current job. What does it feel like when you've left it? Close your eyes and put yourself there. You might feel a bit lighter, a bit more free, maybe even grounded. You feel happy and relived. Then come back to the current moment and put all that in words. Say it out load or write it down, get it our of your head!


What could be beautiful to do is to do this once a month. First or last day, around the moon cycle, any time that would make sense for you where you can have "a new start". This also encourages routine to be set. 

So! That's my thoughts around the subject and I do encourage you to try it out. Some of you might think "who is this crazy chick, what is she talking about" That's okey. I just want you to get out of your head, stop fucking overthinking and get into your body. Listen to it, to the heart, the gut, the throat. And remember, when you're in a place where you just don't know what to do. Get out of your head and into your body. Because the body often has the answers. And we have the responsibility to listen to or bodies and the freedom to act from there. Look after your physical, mental and spiritual body. Incorporate manifestation in your life. 

Aaaaaaall the love 




Sleeping Paralysis

During a prior massage consultation with my lovely friend Rebecca Grace last week, I told her about my Sleeping Paralysis. I don't often talk about it and don't share it with many. We had a chat about it and it made me think about the people out there that isn't familiar with it. So this blog post will be me sharing my experience with the very odd phenomena to hopefully help someone that might have experienced or are experiencing the same. 

What is Sleeping Paralysis? Sleeping Paralysis is when you body falls asleep but your mind is  awake. This happens when you're just about to enter or exit you REM sleep (when you start dreaming). It occurs when the body has trouble making the transitions in and out from the REM sleep. Between 8% and 50% of people experience sleep paralysis at some time. About 5% of people have regular episodes. 

So what happens in general? Well, everyone experience it differently, of course. Every time it occurs it will be a completely different experience. The main symptom is that you can't move your body. Some people can hear imagined sounds such as humming and buzzing noises. Other sounds such as voices, whispers and roars are also experienced. These symptoms are usually combined with intense emotions: such as fear, and panic. 

The Nightmare by Henry Fuseli

The Nightmare by Henry Fuseli

I've been having Sleeping Paralysis for about nine years now, and it's been such an incredible journey. So I'm going to tell you a little bit about it. It all started when I was a teenager and lived in Sweden. We've just moved into a new house and I struggled to settle in with things. That, combined with a lot of other events led me into a depression. I can't remember what my first experience with Sleeping Paralysis was like. But I very clearly remember how it was for me in the beginning in general. I have always been, and are still, afraid of horror movies and 'scary things' etc (I'm scary movie free since 2008 yey). As a kid I believed in ghosts, demons and creatures in the woods ha ha #swedishmythology. We lived in a house with old floors and it was placed just by a beautiful but dark woodland. With my very intense imagination, I created 'scary' scenarios in my head before I went to bed, and that's was how it all started. Due to the intense mind action that was constantly going on in the evenings, I wouldn't be able to fall asleep. Instead I would be there listening to the noises or checking the hallway. What would happened was that my body would get really really tired, but my mind just didn't want to relax. So sleeping paralysis araised - And it freaked me out! My body fell asleep, but I was still awake! I wouldn't be able to move, I would hallucinate and imagine 'people' standing by my bed, hearing weird noises along with other things. I immediately thought I was possessed (lol) and was repeatedly afraid of falling asleep. So this would happen night after night after night. To this day I struggle to sleep in my room whenever I'm in Sweden. Throughout the years I have explored this and seen it as a practice. Today I feel soooo blessed to have had this experience. 

When I fall into a sleeping paralysis today it all starts with this huge force of energy pressing me down towards the bed. I get big waves of shivering's throughout my body and a loud tinnitus sound arrises. I can't move my body and my breath slows down. Sometimes I believe I'm moving and I can feel my body being pulled in different directions through this 'energy' that's inside of me. This is obviously me hallucinating as I'm so close to my REM sleep. And if this was me 5 years ago I would panic. But today I stay. And I breathe. I just allow everything to happen. Because I'm not asleep yet, I'm very aware of what's going on and it keeps me calm as I'm exploring the sensations and feelings that comes up. Sometimes it will get a bit too intense and I choose to get out of it. This is a point where a lot of people would panic. How do you "wake up"? Yes it's pretty intense to wake your body up, especially as your mind is shifting between being asleep and awake. I bring all my awareness and focus to one fingertip. And I would concentrate on that point so intensely, until I can bring movement there. And as soon as you've started to move one tiny part of your body, the movement will grow and we will wake up. I've experienced waking up and then waking up several times this way. It's not some kind of Inception stuff going on. It's just your mind making it's way back to the body and the current moment. So if you ever feel that you are about to fall into a Sleeping Paralysis I find that laying on my side instead of my back helps massively along with drinking some water. Why? don't know, it just works. Then again. This will be different for everyone! This is just me charing my experiences. 


So if this is something that has happened to you

Try to approach it with curiosity rather than fear. I know it's hard when all you want to do is to fall asleep. But to push your body towards that it will just make it worse. Just give in and explore it. 

Sleeping Paralysis have showed me evidence that there is a physical body as well as a spiritual body. And life is about balancing them. We're so fixed with our physical body as that's the only thing we physically can see. But that's one half of what it is. So let's explore both sides of life. Physical and spiritual. And remember, that growth happens at the end of your comfort zone. 

All the love, 



All Around Training

I wanted to write a post to share how I exercise and keep my body strong and healthy. I have had some people asking me how I train so this post will be about that!

As you know I practice yoga if not every day, every second. That's a mixture of studio and home practice. Twice a week I practice with senior teachers, and the rest of the time at home. When I practice at home there's no schedule really. One day I'll end up in a Yin styled practice, other days I'm flowing through Vinyasa and some times I end up warming up to only practice inversions. It all depends on what in up for that day. I tend to practice my home practice in the evenings after 7, before dinner, or around noon before lunch, as I don't like to move my body on a full stomach. I am always on a fluid schedule so there's never any timings set in stone. Which I truly love. 

However, not only am I practicing Asana and Pranayama. I incorporate other physical exercise weekly. It all comes down to have fun whiles training, it's easier to keep it consistent and commit to it then. So I wanted to share these three exercises with you as it might benefiting your yoga practice and general health. 



As some of you might know I've recently picked up climbing. I climb once or twice a week (I would love to climb more, I just don't have time for it). We end up spending about three hours at the climbing gym. That would include warm up, climbing, mid climb handstand play and post climb stretch. Guys, I can't even tell you how this has changed my game. I have, for a very long time, worked on gaining strength in my arms, shoulders and rhomboids. I've done so many exercises, working with calisthenics and functional fitness. But nothing has build strength in those areas as fast and as sustainable as climbing has. Climbing for me doesn't feel like exercising at all. It's so much fun, you get this amazing sense of achievement once you've finished a route and the adrenaline that arises when you're close to falling is addictive. With climbing there's so much concentration (Dharana) and breathing awareness (Pranayama) similar to Yoga. Theres also a lovely, community vibe similar to what we often find in Yoga studios. Yoga offers Sangha, community. And so does climbing, Like minded people gathering to practice, change experiences and listen.
Poses that has become stronger and more integrated since I started climbing.
Vashistasana (side plank), Adho Mukha Dandasana (downward facing staff pose), Bakasana (Crow Pose), Pincha Mayurasana (Forearm Balance), Adho Mukha Vrksasana (Handstand) and many more. 

I climb mostly at The Arch (it's south of the river, woaaaa, I go there for their fun and innovative routes. Off peak prices makes it worth the travel as well. They also have a great gym and make decent coffee). When I can't be asked to travel south I climb at The Castle (it's a five min bike ride from home. They offers Bouldering, Top Climbing and Lead Climbing). Both the climbing gyms are great in different ways. Sooo give climbing a try, you won't regret it. Just don't forget to stretch it out after a session!



Working with the body and the body only. I don't have a general gym membership as I don't feel like I need it (probably wouldn't have time to go). But something I do about once or twice a week is to practice Functional Fitness, or HIIT. I do this at home because all you need is yourself and a mat, right! I love to target muscle groups depending on what improvements I'm after. I really enjoy it as I love pushing myself (and get sweaty!). Even though I am targeting muscles groups depending on mood, I always have core and butt in. It's helped me to tone up big time, for sure!
Poses that has become stronger and more integrated since I started with Functional Fitness.
Virabhadrasana 1,2,3 (Warrior 1,2,3), Ardha Chandrasana (Half Moon Pose), Chaturanga Dandasana (Four-Limbed Staff Pose), Utthita Parsvakonasana (Extended Side Angle Pose). 


Running has been my nemisis since the day I was born. I've always wanted to be good at it at the same time as enjoying it. I was neither. I thought it was boring, it was hard and I wasn't very good at it. So why did I start running once a week? We'll running is that one thing I never committed to. Never actually tried hard enough, never actually sticked to it and thats why it's not my best friend. But every time after a run I feel great and I always note some kind of improvement. As I saw improvement, faith grew and I all of a sudden started to enjoy it. I run around Clissold park and I see it as a Prana (breathing) exercise. Call me stupid I don't know if that's legit, but I focus so much on my breathing when I'm running that I forget that Im actually out on the track. And all of a sudden it's over. So even if you're not into running, start gradually and it will slowly unfold. 

So that's basically how I train! Every week is different exercise wise, but it really works for me. Just make sure that if you are living an active life, give yourself rest days as well, eat good food and remember that the most important thing for improvement is to balance Tapas (discipline and passion), with a bit of Pitta (fire)!  

All the love, 


Self as Centre

Looking after oneself, one looks after others.
Looking after others, one looks after oneself
— Buddha, Samyutta Nikaya

We all know that taking care of ourselves is pretty important for a sustainable life. Yet, we're raised in a way where prioritising our own happiness is many cases are seen as selfish. If you're not one with yourself or if you don't know where your centre is - how are you supposed to be one with others? I mean we've all heard it before, right. But how do we find our centre? What is our centre?Do I have been through hell to get there? Will it just arrive one day as an epiphany? And is our centre what we want it to be? No one really knows. The way there is a journey that will be as unique to everyone as they are in the world. The most important part is to be true and kind to oneself. Our centre is a very subtle place. We still need to find that place, listen and act from it to truly show our honest actions in its purest form, of which our intentions are true. 

My mom once told me something that will stick with me forever. Take it how you ever you'd like. She said: "No matter what happens. You'll always have yourself. So prioritie and take care of yourself".  It's a fine line between selfishness and self care. When she told me that it made me understand was that, of course, do my best to care for others and to do good for this world, however, if I am not prioritising my feelings (that will set the tone for every day vibes and actions), how am I truly going to be able to help and care for others? So to come from a place of love, where we look inwards and listen, to create space and to process, we can become very good friends with ourselves. Our mood and how we view things will change. You are in control over your life and feelings. And there's so many ways to do good things in this life. So wouldn't it be great to live a life of doing all that. Where you fully know yourself, you're true to yourself and your happy with yourself. 


Here's some ways

For you to take care of.... Yourself! 


Be aware of your feelings. Notice what comes up and when it comes up. It can often be very hard to face the truth of oneself. Especially when the ego has taken over and we're not acting in a way that we would agree with if the were the third person. Just being aware of what's going on. When are you feeling down, and why? Where is it coming from? Is it temporary or do you need to change something? What time of the day do you feel negative, down or jealous? Are you creating stories in your head about "what happened"? Without fixing or changing anything, just acknowledge whats going on. It's sometimes harder to listen to our own problems than to listen to a friends. But as we live in this body in this world, it is important, I would say, to be able to listen to ourselves. Without judgement, just acceptance and love - being aware of your feelings. 


When was the last time you did something for the first time? Be curious! With everything! All! The! Time! Energy is created when we're passionate about learning something new. And when I say curious, I mean it in every way. Explore new hobbies that you want to do. Explore flavours that will bring you a new experience. Be curious listening to other peoples stories - they might inspire you. And even if you don't agree, just listen and try to understand and see where they're coming from. Be curious when it comes to vulnerability (I know, this one is hard, but yet so important) and see where your tipping point is, that will help you A LOT when it comes to understanding your own patterns and sometimes even the source of actions. Be curious in a way that will help you become a better person, with more experiences and understanding of the world. It will create a place of self centre knowing that there's so much going on out there - and if you're comfortable with it or not, you know that you always can come back to yourself. With a little bit more knowledge and experience.  


Always remember that you all cases, without a doubt, have a choice. Then, of course, we put perspective, privilege, morale into it and that will sometimes change the outcome. But you do have the choice of of deciding where you want your life to be heading. Im a big believer in that once thing leads to another, but you can always effect the direction of your path through discipline and passion. We are so used to living by the norm, doing 'what we are supposed to do'. Doing else wise would be in many cases very hard and scary. When I am saying choice it doesn't have to be major things all the time. It could be something as simple as structuring your days in a way that would work better for you or noticing if you are surrounding yourself with unnecessary drama. You are the only one can make the choice of what vibe you want to create and radiate.


Surrond yourself with great people! I could not preach this more. It will change the game for sure. We've all heard this saying before: "your vibe attracts your tribe", which is true, but to look at it from a different angle; Your tribe affects your vibe!! Yes! Surround yourself with people that inspire you, with people that are different but similar at the same time. Creating a community on trust where you can be yourself. It could be in a yoga studio, at a pottery class, at the local park with all the dogs, in your flat share (or neighbourhood) or at your favourite cafe. Just creating that community where you can just have a sense about not being alone. Because you're not. 


When you're tired, rest. Listen to your body, because when it's telling you it's tired. It's tired. period. Recap on sleep, take it slow, recharge, check in. Because that's often when the magic happens.


Be patient with yourself and others. Give yourself space and time for what you need, and remember that a lot of great things takes time. There's no need to try to live in the future. Well, it's great to have aspirations and dreams. But then it's all about going back to your centre and the present moment where we are patient and ambitious. 


Last but not least - Pleasure. Yes, yes and yes. It is sooooo important to feel pleasure. In every way and form it arrises for you. Finishing a task, eating something you really love or maybe sex. Anything that makes your heart pumping. Feeling the excitement and pleasure is so important to get us going. 


Try some of these exercises in your own way. I am sharing from my experience and you might not agree with what I am saying. And that's okey. We're all so different with different thoughts and minds just trying to contribute to something better in this work, right. Just know that you are enough in every way. Be kind to yourself. Do what you like and give yourself a break...

So how do we find our centre? What is our centre? Do I have been through hell to get there? Will it just arrive one day as an epiphany? And is our centre what we want it to be? No one really knows. It's everyones own journey to find out. So on your way there, just remember: 

Looking after oneself, one looks after others.
Looking after others, one looks after oneself
— Buddha, Samyutta Nikaya


This post didn't really turn out as I imagined when I started to write. I wrote this long, stripped down page about attitude, my attitude and my past, along with all my thoughts about it. BUT, it got a bit too much for me, a bit too emotional, and I still have some processing to do. So I deleted it. The whole point was to share the quote below. So that's what I'm gonna do. Maybe I'll share the deleted notes in the future.

For now. I want to send my wishes to all the people I've met this year. To all the new friends I made, to all the friends that stayed around and for the friends that faded away. For all my teachers and fellow practitioners. For the lovers and all the inspiring people that's been vibrating positively. For you who challenged me, and for you who broke me. I am so so grateful for every single one of you. For everything you've taught me. And I feel so blessed by the fact that I have had the privilege to meet you. 

Let's wrap up 2017 with love and compassion. Whatever happened, good or bad, let's look back with gratitude for everything, knowing that you've learned something from every event. Feel the ground beneath you, the breath within you and the moon above you. 

I've read a lot this year. A lot of inspiring authors has made me think. I've thought about, and written down my New Years intentions and goals. BUT THIS, this is the one quote that will bring me back to my centre in 2018. 


Those words will guide me back and remind me that I am in charge. Everyday we have a choice and it's about making that choice. 

Continue to inspire and aspire. Let's be ambitious, not thirsty. Give gratitude for your past, present and future. AND REMEMBER; 'When god closes a door, she opens a window.'


Happy new year &


Endless loVe

X X X, Dijana

The Power of Change

We go through change constantly. Our moods are deforming as we move through the seasons, our relationships to ourselves and others will soften a million throughout our lifetime, and we'll hopefully experience all the ups and the downs in a way that will allow us to change the way we see and experience our journey. So why is change so important but yet something we often are frightened by? 

Taking a moment to reflect about what's important is key. To have a think about where you are, where you want to be and what you'd like to change is something that I highly value. Having dreams and goals (in a healthy way) without living a life of constant grasping and wanting more, say; a bigger pay check, a better yoga mat or maybe a more beautiful flat. Of course we need that bit of Rajas (passion and drive) to move forward. But I also know it's very, very easy and comfortable to stay in a situation even though we're not happy in it. With that being said, I'm not promoting to execute drastical changes due to lack of happiness one week at work or a couple of days with your partner - absolutely not. Change is needed when it gets to the point where it drains you and you forget about who you are. When you're so caught up pleasing other people, when you're working so hard you don't know when to stop and when you deep inside know that what you're doing isn't right. If you find yourself in a situation where you think you need change, the first step would be to reflect. It could be something so easy as to make a pros-&-cons-list. Once that's done, digest on it. Have a good, long think about how the situation affects you and what it would look like if things were different. Allow yourself to get used to the thought of change in the scenario, it will take time. The big changes in my life this year (that I will tell you about further down) was decisions that took me three months to take and commit to. When digesting and reflecting over your current, 'not wanted', take a moment to show gratitude for it all. Even though you aren't happy at, lets say work, your work place has still helped you in one way or another, same with maybe a partner or a house. It's easy to exclusively see the bad things when it gets darker and the mind is clogged up with the negative aspects of the situation. To be thankful for it all will make it easier to actually take the big step and move on. 


Sometimes we crash. And it's often unexpected. I find living in a big city where it's full on 24/7 we often forget to think and listen to our bodies. Our body is constantly communicating to us in several ways, but unfortunately a lot of us have created habits to ignore it. Yoga is a way for us to turn inwards and listen to our bodies, a way of checking in. Without any distractions from the busyness of life. Sometimes we'll have breakdowns on the yoga mat, sometimes epiphanies. It's a place for you to actually have a good think and feel what your body has been trying to communicate to you for a while. We must care for ourselves in order to truly care for others. 

It comes crashing down
and only then is the space created
for change needed.
— Unknown

Leaving a comfort zone is hard. Of course it is! I mean you are leaving what you know, right. That could be everything between simple routines, to big life decisions. Remember, when you have to work hard for it, the outcome often tastes better. Living in the unknown like that might feel like you're getting lost. But when we get lost, we also get found - in one way or another. You choose through what perspective you want to view the change in. I had a teacher when I was fourteen that told me "Dijana, whenever you're unsure, always remember to ask yourself  'what's the worst thing that could happen? You're not going to die". I was fourteen!! Haha. I still remember me sitting on the table in that old classroom chatting to my teacher, Anna-Lena, when she told me that. I've been practicing to put things in perspective every since. So even if it feels hard to crack on, remember that it will be worth it, once you're there and it will all be worth it. And one day you'll look back and understand why all of it had to happen. 

As I write this I know it is such a privilege to even be able to go through change like this.  "Just" moving flat, "just" leaving a job, "just" selling some clothes. It all comes back to gratitude. Knowing that even though things are hard, it's a massive privilege for some of us to even be able to think in the terms of change like this. There's so many people that wouldn't be able to do any of it due to a thousand different reasons. Acknowledging your privilege will allow you to put things in perspective and again be thankful for what you are, what you have and what you are allowed to do in this life. 


As we are coming to an end of 2017 I have spent some time reflecting over my year. The beginning of the year was an absolute shit show as I nicely like to call it. It started with a break up, followed with me being absolutely miserable at work and the tension created there seemed to follow me home. The lack of love for what I was working with grew stronger, merged together and created lack of love for myself. I was spiralling. Even though we've been through hard times before, being in the middle of the storm with feelings of anxiety and loneliness, might make it hard to remember that the dark emotions won't last forever. Even though that is the case. And I will forever thank my loving mom for ensuring me that throughout the years. I kept believing that the universe that was testing me. And that was it! I decided to see it as a challenge rather than allowing myself to drown in the emotions. I kept coming back to the thought that this is a test to see how much I could handle. And if I go through this, something great will come back to me. I knew that the change I needed wouldn't arrive on a silver plate. I had to go out there and create what I wanted, not just dreaming about it. So I escaped London to Sweden to recharge, take a break and place myself in a nature where I would feel safe to dissolve. I was processing and processing, crashed a couple of times, felt drained and sad. I got lost and found. I allowed myself to feel it all. Not holding any emotions back, as I knew that the feelings would express itself like a volcano and explode one way or another if I didn't deal with it. So I did. I felt it all. Then I started to plan. The plan turned into action and my life has changed drastically since. I left my job in Shoreditch, I moved out from my flat in London Fields and I healed from the relationship that wounded me. Taking the decision is the hardest part. To make you mind up and commit fully, I found was harder than taking action. I remember I couldn't sleep, I would stay awake trying to figure out where I could live, where I would get money from and how to move from A to B. I kept coming back to 'the universe testing me' which made me feel safe, and I often laughed at the situation because I was never really sure if I set myself up for success or failure. I just continued and believed that it all would make sense in the end. So I moved out from my flat. I left to Croatia for three weeks without a place to come back to or a secured job - hoping that things would fall into place and believing that this would be the ultimate test. And it was. Just like that, the universe decided that seven months of challenge was enough for this year and it was time for same stillness after the storm. My life has fallen to place again, and I am waking up feeling pure happiness daily. 

Some of you might be thinking, what is she on about, universe here and there. Haha I get it. Whatever will keep you going and works for you is what matters. Everyone is so unique and different, with different beliefs, experiences and dreams. Just remember that you are the only one that's in control of your life. We have the responsibility to respond and take action. Even though it might not always feel like it. Especially when we only see the darkness and the bits that are holding us back. We are so blessed to have this one sweet life on earth in this body. So follow your gut, intuition and heart. It will be worth it. 

Let's experience every part of life. The ups & the downs, the laughs & the tears and everything in-between.


Maybe this is the sign you've been waiting for.



Endless love, 

Time to digest. Literally.

Okey - so I have, as many other people, really bad digestion. I've had trouble throughout my teens and adult life with digesting food, creating good habits to try and work with it - and just actually sticking to it. A lot of us (big city residents or not) lives busy lives where food routines becomes second priority; breakfast often in a rush, lunch will be whatever's in the fridge and sometimes a pint will cover dinner (come on, we've all been there). This is a recipe for making your digestion worse. Often, underlying stress would take over and once the body has had enough - it will let you know. The symptoms are of course different for everybody; feeling bloated, stomach aches, stressed gut, heart burn, hunger gain or loss etc. We end up standing there thinking, "why am I feeling this way?". And unfortunately we get used to not-feeling-so-great pretty quickly. 

Every since I was a kid I would have a noisy tummy before I went to sleep. I never knew why. My mom always thought I was hungry and was fighting against eating. That wasn't the case at all, I was just so used to my stomach doing it's thing and didn't really think about it. Later on I would get belly aches after I ate a certain food. I decided to go Vegan after a couple of years being Vegetarian, and the balance in my body got better. I wasn't as bloated as before and I found it easier to digest some food. Being Vegan works well for ME and my lifestyle. But it might not fit everyone, it's everyones choice to explore what works and what doesn't in their own body, in their own way. Keeping in mind that there's pros and cons with everything. My daily routine is me being up early eating a small breakfast, followed by a busy day, always pretty hungry for lunch but are often eating on the go. I normally get home at 10pm-ish, after practice or teaching. I'll be tired, so I end up making a raw sallad, eat it pretty quickly and head straight to bed. For those of you who knows me will know that I go through quite a few coffees throughout the day as well ha! I have just recently really taken control over my routines to really try to make a change in my body.  With the help of my Nutritionist and friend Sally I have gained understanding of what my body needs to stay healthy and strong.


Exercise one - notice your habits! What really helped me was to keep a food diary for a week to begin with. Not to count calories!! But to notice where my habits are; What timings do I eat? How many coffees do I actually go through a day? How often do I snack? And what do I snack on? How often do I forget to take my supplements? What's the timings where my energy crash? What is the reason for the crash? etc etc. This will be the first step in understanding what the pattern is like. Once you know - then, you can look into changing it. 

As we know, our body goes to resting mode quite quickly when we go to bed. So if you're like me, eating raw food before bed, makes it pretty tough for the body to digest. What happens is that the body will work hard to break it down and don't be able to go in to it's full relaxation mode. It takes way longer for the food to be digested and you can wake up still feeling pretty full due to the food not being digested as smoothly. Sleep is the time the body can undergo repair and detoxification. And if the body is busy trying to digest raw cabbage and kale there won't be a lot of detoxification going on!! Poor sleep patterns are linked to poor health. If you're interested in sleep and what happens during, have a read through this article. It's brilliant.  

Here's five fast tips that might steer you to the right direction. 

  • It all starts in the mouth.
    Chewing your food is half the point in eating and a big part of the digestion process. Make sure you chew properly to help your tummy break it down even more. 
  • Apple Cider Vinegar changed the game.
    One table spoons of Apple Cider Vinegar in a small glass of hot water before every meal. It's enzyme-rich and will stimulate the digestive juices that help your body breakdown food.
  • Hot ginger yeessss. 
    By starting your day with hot ginger and lemon water, will kick your metabolism into high gear and setting yourself up to burn calories and energise your body for the entire day.
  • Flaxseeds to get things going.
    They are an excellent source of omega-3 fatty acids and they contain soluble fiber. This is the type of fiber that helps your digestive processes along. The oils they contain contribute to digestive regularity by lubricating your system. Flaxseed is also commonly used to relieve constipation. So try to have a small glass of soaked flaxseeds and water before bed. 
  • H2O.
    Water is suuuuper important for digestion! We need water to digest solid food and absorb nutrients properly. Without water, the entire body’s performance decreases which can lead to dehydration and decrease blood pressure which can cause constipation.

I am not a nutritionist and this is tips and tricks that I share from my experience. If you have got a lot of digestion issues I highly recommend you to see a nutritionist, work with a plan to reclaim your gut health and find out what changes would be needed for your body. 

To keep the body in balance is key. Yoga Asana is one way of creating balance in the body. However there's so much more to it. If we can become a little bit more mindful about our digestion. The rest of the body can focus on all the other important bits. The potential of you is limitless. Only you can take control of your decisions. No one else. You are the one that takes action and that are in control of your own body. 

Lots of love! 



What is a 'Shakti Shake'

Some of you might have heard of this before, some of you not. In the middle of a class, maybe in a Uttanasana (forward fold) or Virabhadrasana 2 (Warrior 2) and the teacher says "... on your next exhale, invite a little Shakti Shake". Ha! I remember first time I heard a teacher saying that in class. I was like; '.....what am I gonna shake?!' If you've experienced the same - this one's for you! 

Let's start from the beginning. This will be a brief description of where the 'Shakti Shake' comes from and what it actually is on the yoga mat in most modern day studios. 

You are probably familiar with Lord Shiva. With it's heritage from Hinduism, Shiva is the creator and the destroyer of the Universe. The supreme being who creates, protects and transforms the world. Shiva symbolises consciousness and is dominant by masculine energy. Shiva is pure consciousness, the ultimate observer. Shakti, on the other hand, embodies the active feminine energy of Shiva, showed through power and energy. When power gets active, Shakti is working. The two balances and are manifested in feminine and masculine energy - not as a man or a woman. Shakti and Shiva, in a the spiritual aspect, is the union of the human and the divine consciousness. Shiva and Shakti exists within all of us. 


Shakti, as explained above, means energy, power, movement, change and nature, It's the feminine energy that offer nourishment, warmth and security. But also the energy that carries and nourish the inner child that lives inside of us. So with Shakti being the energy that's often manifested in a physical form - movement. Keeping in mind that everything depends on each other and that there is no Shakti without Shiva and the other way around. It is the movement of the energy in the body that is Shakti, which is what's often mentioned in class.

So when teachers are inviting you to explore a 'Shakti Shake'. It basically means just to shake it off. Or in? Shake your body, fast bringing the awareness inwards, getting the kundalini (energy) flowing, working with your Prana (breath), loosening up and finding Dharana (concentration) again. Like goosebumps that just arrives in your body without any explanation, a Shakti Shake often takes form without any heads up. 

There is obviously so so so much more to Shiva and Shakti and the energy movements in the body. If this is something that interest you and is something that you want to bring your awareness to when practicing, I would highly recommend to read into it further. It gives you an understanding of the balances of your body. Like a tree, the information grows, and can be further connected and explained through ex. Yin & Yang, the Chackras and of course Kundalini. The most common form of awaken Shakti energy through 'Shakes' is practicing Kundalini focused dancing. Which I've never tried, but that I do know is available in some London studios if you would be interested.

So next time you hear about a Shaki Shake in a class, at least you know a little bit more about it! 



Last Full Moon of 2017 - does it really affect us?

We keep hearing people speaking their opinions, good and bad, about moons coming and going. Some people think it's absolute bullshit and some people plan their holidays around the moon phrases. Why is there so many different views on this subject? Is there even a right or wrong? And does the moon actually affect us humans? 

The last Full Moon of 2017 took place last night. The sky was cloudy and thick. I couldn't see any light reflected from the beautiful moon at all, I guess that's what you get from living in London. Even though I couldn't see you  - I could defiantly feel you.

The full moon has been associated with strange or insane behavior, including suicide, sleepwalking and violence. The words lunacy and lunatic actually comes from luna, the Latin word for moon. It is believed that people were more likely to show erratic behavior during a full moon. 

A publication on the National Criminal Justice Reference Service titled lunar effect- biological tides and human emotions, shows analyses of data on human behavior. Looking into how the moon's gravitational influence brings about social tension, disharmony and bizarre results.

So does the moon actually affect us humans? 


Super interesting fact:
Once a year there is a massive synchronised reproduction spawning of corals in the Great Barrier Reef. It involves colonies and species of corals that's simultaneously releasing tiny egg and sperm bundles into the water. We're talking thousands and thousands of coral - AT THE SAME TIME!! This mass spawning occurs after the last full moon of each year. It only happens at night — resembles an underwater snowstorm! It’s one of the most spectacular natural phenomena on Earth and the event is sometimes called The Great Barrier Reef's 'annual sex festival' ha! Call it what you'd like. The fact that the coral coordinates the whole event based on the full moon, I found profoundly fascinating. 

If the moon energy is triggering one of the biggest events in the sea on an annual base. Can we really be sure when we say that the moon energy won't affect us humans? After all, we're made of 65% water. Have you ever felt urges or maybe emotional instability around the moon phrases? Maybe you're all about it, maybe you haven't noticed the pattern at all. For fun, add the Full Moons in your calendar for 2018 and just see if you, in a spiritual and physical level, experience any changes. 

I am a massive fan of the sea. Every since I was a kid I wanted to become a marine biologist. Quickly I realised that I wasn't that good at studying and went a different direction. On that note - never stop observing nature and question it's actions. We are all made from the same stuff. We belong to the Earth. Everything is synchronised. Everything depends on each other. So let's keep our minds open to explore and stay curious!




Okay, so with this website going live I decided to start blogging. It's funny how I've stayed away from it in the past even though I love to share thoughts and experiences. I've had loads of friends in Sweden blogging about fashion and lifestyle through out my teens and twenties. And I guess I'll join the crew (minus fashion). 

Everything between delicious recipes & yoga tips and tricks to fun lifestyle posts & my travels. I will be talking about where I am and where I am heading. And I will of course be chatting about Y-O-G-A, what I struggle with and what I love.